Been spending a lot of time in waiting rooms again. I haven't spent this much time on a faux leather chair with wooden armrests since my cancer treatments between Fall 2019 into early 2020. Before then, I simply never went to the doctor. So to be back in what feels like one endless stream of... Continue Reading →
Reinvention on paper.
It's midnight. I've got the front window open and I can hear the rain hitting the pavement. Usually that would put me to sleep, but for some reason, it's inspired me to open my MacBook once again. So again, I'm sitting where I feel like I've been sitting for weeks now... at my kitchen table.... Continue Reading →
Burden or light.
http://www.RachelWilliamsOnline.com I don't know when it happened exactly. I just know it happened. It wasn't overnight. It wasn't one catastrophic event. It wasn't someone's words that lingered. It wasn't one specific loss that did me in. So I guess it was an endless series of things...life...that didn't seem all that noticeable at the time but "out of nowhere",... Continue Reading →
“I talked myself out of it.”
It's 2AM and I can't sleep. There is nothing particularly wrong. Sometimes the brain just wants to create...and in my case, that means I'm writing. It's been over a month since my last blog. I've thought about sitting down and writing every single day since then. I'd take my laptop in the car with me wherever... Continue Reading →
Silenced.
I will never, in my lifetime, forget December 2, 2010. I was sleeping in bed alongside my "work-in-progress" boyfriend at the time, in my blue bedroom, in my new house in Hermitage, TN. I woke up to my phone vibrating on the nightstand. I picked it up and immediately saw a photo of a baby in an incubator, all... Continue Reading →
The ultimate “swipe right”
Around this time last year, I was asked out on date by a dude on Tinder, who's caption read, "It's getting cold outside. Looking for a girlfriend for the winter." True story. A girl with my dating track record really had nothing to lose. I had JUST relocated to Michigan for a few months to... Continue Reading →
Sobering up to a “fallen sky”…
I don't want to get political. I really don't. And I won't. I will say, however, that I urged my fellow family members and friends to vote. I posted on my social media accounts to please, for the love of God, go vote. I spent a good chunk of time sorting through my feelings with my fingers... Continue Reading →
Death…and what’s left behind.
Mortality is something I've thought about a lot this year. And when I wasn't thinking about it, well...it'd come back and slap me in the face a few times to remind me it was still a thing that needed to be thought on. This year taught me a lot about shutting up. Listening. Learning. I absorbed... Continue Reading →
What a difference a year can make.
What a difference a year can make. Or 89 years, at that. Yesterday we celebrated my Granny's 89th birthday. I want us all to take a moment here... EIGHTY-NINE YEARS OLD! Taylor Swift was born in 1989. My grandmother was born in 1927. Like, whaaaaaa?! This woman still lives alone in the house that she... Continue Reading →
the bright side of 2am leftovers on a pull-out couch.
It is legit 2am. I have a lot to say, but I'm not gonna lie... I'm tired...slightly buzzed...and extremely full on the Thai leftovers I had from yesterday's lunch. I'll say this though... Today was a good day. A really, really good day. I got to sing background vocals alongside 2 complete, MONSTER vocalists, whom... Continue Reading →
The Reinvention Of Raye 