I feel afraid of this world. If I’m being completely truthful here, nowhere feels safe to me these days and I don’t know that I want to be anywhere anymore. I’ve lived my whole life thinking that the national headlines were for the news “out there” - “in here” we are saddened by the tragedies... Continue Reading →
the hometown bubble.
I haven't been very good about writing lately. (I sound like a broken record.) Aside from some journaling here and there and starting a few song ideas, I've allowed my mind to be distracted by other things... travelling, packing/unpacking, being outside as much as humanly possible, Harry Potter books (I've decided to read the entire... Continue Reading →
everything in the middle of nowhere.
It's a weird thing. I have literally thought to myself and/or said out loud to others, "I really feel like blogging" and yet... nothing. For quite awhile now. That is always a huge indicator for me. I write when I have something that needs to be said. When the desire to write my heart, read... Continue Reading →
Burden or light.
http://www.RachelWilliamsOnline.com I don't know when it happened exactly. I just know it happened. It wasn't overnight. It wasn't one catastrophic event. It wasn't someone's words that lingered. It wasn't one specific loss that did me in. So I guess it was an endless series of things...life...that didn't seem all that noticeable at the time but "out of nowhere",... Continue Reading →
What is mine…
Yards. Lawns. People take such pride in them, right? Mowing, watering, landscaping, gardening. Personally, I never got into it. However, I do remember how I enjoyed using my push lawn mower in my first rental house. **See photo below for proof** I was about 21 years old, renting a one bedroom, 500 square foot house on a dead end street... Continue Reading →
“I talked myself out of it.”
It's 2AM and I can't sleep. There is nothing particularly wrong. Sometimes the brain just wants to create...and in my case, that means I'm writing. It's been over a month since my last blog. I've thought about sitting down and writing every single day since then. I'd take my laptop in the car with me wherever... Continue Reading →
Silenced.
I will never, in my lifetime, forget December 2, 2010. I was sleeping in bed alongside my "work-in-progress" boyfriend at the time, in my blue bedroom, in my new house in Hermitage, TN. I woke up to my phone vibrating on the nightstand. I picked it up and immediately saw a photo of a baby in an incubator, all... Continue Reading →
The ultimate “swipe right”
Around this time last year, I was asked out on date by a dude on Tinder, who's caption read, "It's getting cold outside. Looking for a girlfriend for the winter." True story. A girl with my dating track record really had nothing to lose. I had JUST relocated to Michigan for a few months to... Continue Reading →
Sobering up to a “fallen sky”…
I don't want to get political. I really don't. And I won't. I will say, however, that I urged my fellow family members and friends to vote. I posted on my social media accounts to please, for the love of God, go vote. I spent a good chunk of time sorting through my feelings with my fingers... Continue Reading →
Death…and what’s left behind.
Mortality is something I've thought about a lot this year. And when I wasn't thinking about it, well...it'd come back and slap me in the face a few times to remind me it was still a thing that needed to be thought on. This year taught me a lot about shutting up. Listening. Learning. I absorbed... Continue Reading →